I'm not sure where to begin except to say that I stand in awe of God. I'm so ashamed of myself that I ever wonder if He cares about the little, ordinary, and mundane circumstances that cross my path every day. Every time He answers a prayer that I consider small, I am in disbelief that He would do that for me and humbled by my lack of faith.
Let me preface this story by saying that the last few weeks has been hectic, tedious, and wearing on my joy. I've allowed frustrations to dictate my moods and the way I treat people I care about. In short...selfish and so in my flesh! So...this morning as I started my summer vacation, the enemy decided to stick with his plan and rob my joy once again. I logged on to check email and received the message that I've been receiving for the last 30 days that my internet security is now expired and I am not being protected any longer. Normally that would not be something to get me riled up. However, in keeping with the theme of the last few weeks, this small matter riled me up to the point of tears...and it was only 8:30 am! Reluctantly, I began the process to renew my subscription...and...of course...ran into brick wall after brick wall. Tears streamed down my face as I sent an arrow prayer toward Heaven..."Lord, I can't take one more thing. Please do something."
I went to the online chat support, and a rep named Omit greeted me. After filling him in on the problems I was facing, he asked to have control of my computer so he could check my settings and so forth. I obliged his request and he took over. As I sat and watched my computer screen, I saw in front of me my cursor moving back and forth clicking on things that were not under my control. I couldn't see this guy, nor could I hear him. However, I watched him do his thing on my computer...coming from knowledge he had that I did not. I waited and did as he instructed. As he worked, I could see that he began to uninstall my entire Norton Security program from my computer. Two things happened to me: one side of me grew very anxious about this person that I did not know on the other end of the connection controlling my computer. After all, the world speaks of how dangerous it is to trust anyone on the other end of an internet connection...and not only that...I gave him full access to my computer. The other side of me fell to peace and I grew very emotional because as I continued to watch all I could see was someone uninstalling a very old version of Norton Security and installing the newest version of security for renewal price I had already paid...which was much less than buying the version he was upgrading me to. If you knew all about my situation, you would understand just how big that is to me. I don't know if Omit is a Christian or not. What I do know is that the Lord did his thing through Omit, and I realized as well that the Lord does care about those little things that I try to tackle on my own every day, and He does hear me when I cry out to Him. He knows when I can't take anymore and He knows just how to draw me back in to His protective arms.
I believe if you are reading this posting today that there is a greater purpose behind it. If you are wondering if God cares about the mundane and ordinary circumstances of your life, let me encourage you to believe beyond a shadow of a doubt that He does. All He wants is for us to take it to Him and He'll do the rest. This was His message to me today, "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." I hope you can find rest in Him as well.
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